idle but nothing important to do

I haven't visit DIOENGLISH for weeks although i had intended to write every day. but I did not insist on recently.
Am i busy? No. Maybe i am always idle.I am a little upset these days since i am worried that what i should do when i am a liittle old. Maybe all the boss do not like the old guy work in the office. But i do not have any special skills. So at that time what should i do.Sometimes i have great desire to learn something but i do not know what should i learn.
I do not know if others have the same anxiety as me. But i have. Maybe i am the one without safety or the thoughful ones.
Sometimes i want to be a teacher or the civil servant. Though their life is not so colorful but they have their life-time work.As a women,cheap snapback hats,
to live in that way is another good way. At least i think so. Maybe i am older now.